I expected the Christmas holiday to be difficult considering that it was my 1st Christmas without Brinley. I was waiting for the meltdown to happen...but it never did. I felt sad but at the same time, I felt at peace. I miss her like crazy and not a moment goes by that I don't think of her but I know that she is where God intended for her to be. It was nice to know that family hasn't forgotten about her. She was talked about a lot and it's quite clear that her memory is still alive ... She is most definitely with us!!
As we look forward to what 2012 has to offer us...I have to give thanks for the blessings that I have received in 2011. Dwelling on the bad will never bring Brinley back to me but being grateful to God for all that he has blessed me with will allow me to see her again one day. Some days it's not always easy to remember the good but there will always be tomorrow. Yes, I know they say that "tomorrow is never promised"....but in reality it has been! God has promised each of us eternal life and in my book, that means "tomorrow" (I never said "tomorrow" would take place on this earth)!!
I have an amazing family that have been more than supportive through my entire life (even when they should've walked away from all of my ignorance) ... I could never begin thank them enough to show my gratitude. I have a church family and my husband's family who have stood by us and walked beside us through what was the hardest, most difficult time of our life. We may have slept through the ball drop of 2011, but we have God, family, friends and a church family who made 2011 a year to remember...a year to cherish!
<3 Melissa <3
1 comment:
Deb Stone
My prayer for you this coming year is that God will bless you and Leif in ways that you never even imagined, that He will lift you up and allow you to continue to be a source of strength and encouragement to other families going through similar heartaches. I pray that He will restore your joy fully, and even more than you had before because joy comes from the Lord. I pray that He will bless you financially, spiritually, physically, emotionally, in all your relationships and in every area of your life. I pray that He will bless you so that you can in turn, be a blessing to others. And I also am asking that, if it be His will, that he bless you with a child that you can raise and love and get frustrated with. I wish you and Leif, and both of your families, all of God's goodness this coming year...not because any of us deserves it but because He loves you and wants it for you.
Deb Stone
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